Day 6

I'm Sorry , I'm actually crazy than I actually was which makes me inevitably unacceptable. A long gap after I'm writing this to you , I know right , you usually don't like to see my diaries but I'd keep writing because my heart says you'll see them one day. I have felt weak many times but neither Iniesta's departure nor Harry's wedding shocked me more than you just not reading. I found something new today for myself , I live my life in different characters I'm humble sometimes, sometimes I'm angry, I'm in pain and agony ,sometimes I'm in vicinity of myself and I'm fool sometimes.I saw myself in your crystal clear brown eyes . I lie to see infinity of sky but find myself lost, I saw ocean in you but had found myself. Life is a one way trip you just wait for your turn to fill gas in between but you sometimes can't that doesn't means you are done with trip. I feel disappointed with the fact who I am because I really don't. I know I sound burden to you I know I was boring I know I had no value in your life , I know you are free from my burden and cries but one day if you read this you should know I care too much for you and I'm very happy for you.

You don't know many things I don't know more if we add up together we know something less

I've been bad I know but

Someday everything will make perfect sense , So for now laugh at the confusion , smiling through tears be strong and keep reminding yourself everything happens for a reason

-John Mayer